My 80th post. Things have been the same. I still hate 2010. Everyday I feel dam sian and depressed. Its so hard to keep up a sense of normality. I hate this! So many things are bothering me and they are forever on my mind. I can safely say 2010 is not my year at all.

I've been praying so hard but nothing seems to have changed. "Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence not seen." Easier said then done as I have found out. "My grace is sufficient for thee.." this is more encouraging but I need to last another 532 days. I just feel so much pain everyday. Someone help me please!

Oh well, at least YOG has been a much needed reprieve but other than that I have nothing much to look forward to except more outfields/range/route marches/ overseas excercises. Somehow I need and will get out of all this. Mum and dad's birthdays were just over. I don't really know what else to write. So much for my 80th post.